I do this thing where no matter how much I like a new trainer, I doubt them quite a bit in the beginning. I don’t even realize I am doing it usually, until I get myself in trouble by NOT listening, and then I spend some time after my lesson mentally going over what happened. This is who I am, and I simply can’t help it.
So how did I doubt this time?
Lessons at the new barn have been going GREAT, but I also continue to over-ride in the pursuit of perfection. I want things to go really well, all the time. I realize this is not how lessons work, and I perpetually get reminded that I need to let Rio make mistakes, but OHMYGOSHIJUSTWANTTOBEGOOD. During my lesson last night we were working on a “simple” exercise. Trot into a line, then 7 strides to the out. It was a bending line, and trainer Julie warned me it would be short, so I really needed to come in super quite and really think about keeping the step small in the line. I did it so well the first time that I actually almost got 8 strides. Julie nearly died of shock. After that though… I apparently decided 7 was impossible, and that 6 was much more feasible. I would get almost to the out, and then think, “Oh *&#$ this is gonna be ugly as sin, we better go NOW!” and Rio would take the hint and go for the long spot (bless his heart).
Julie thankfully didn’t jump on my ass (she has the patience of a saint), but simply asked why I did that. I couldn’t help it/I told her the distance just wasn’t there, it wasn’t going to happen. Nuh uh, no way. My brain thinks that the longer spot is ‘better’ in that type of situation. I forget that this ISN’T a show, and that at home we do not want to train Rio for the long spot. She laughed a bit and said, “You lost the faith! You had it, Rio had it, you just lost faith! Now you are going to have to work twice as hard to get it next time.”
Hint, she was right. She of course was also right about their being another step. The jump was max 2’6. Rio could crawl over that. I do NOT need to power off the ground to everything like it’s 3’6. For some reason I jump around my lessons lately like all the jumps are way bigger then they are, I reallyyyyy need to settle and maybe drink a beer before my lessons. Cheers!
Who else struggles with doubt? Doubt in yourself, or in what your trainer is telling you do, even though you don’t believe it’s possible? Does it bite you in the a$$? I’ve promised Julie to have more faith in the future LOL.
P.S. I had so much fun with the Voltaire giveaway I think I’ll do a quick smaller giveaway next week. Winner is going to get horse treats, a baseball hat from my favorite local tack show (Quail Hollow), and a Hunky Hanoverian vinyl decal (supplied by Joanne, the bst guest blogger ever)! Entering is going to be something super easy (like commenting on the insta post or something similar, I haven’t quite decided). So stay tuned!